Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Oh God
Oh god what a hellish day
Yesterday the bus before us hit a dog and when we drove past there was blood and guts all over the road and a woman standing there crying over the little bundle in the street. Oh god it was terrible. The blood was still there this morning. Oh god its been haunting me all day - jus that same stupid ditto over and over again - "blood on the road, blood on the road, there's blood on the road". I need to talk to someone about this I think - it's driving me crazy. good god it was not my dog, i didn't kill it - i wasn't even on the bus that killed it but i still feel so awful. What if it had been one of mine? I've never written down thoughts before but i have to externalize this or i will go insane. I will never forget the horror of all that blood and that woman crying over her dog. I feel so awful and all i saw was the aftereffects. I didn't even see the poor thing die. But you can't help feeling oh god what if that was my dog. I ... oh god this is stupid its a bloody computer i'm blurting my heart out to. What is the bloody point? and all the while there is blood on the road. There is still blood on the road.
Experienced At |9:43 PM|
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